Innocent Energy & Perfect Personal Healing
This was the evening on the third day of the conference, and just after I had returned to the hotel, still buzzing after a superb first day of the EMO practitioner training and dinner with some of the participants - and of course, we'd been doing, thinking, breathing and then eating ET all day!
So all of that was very much still on my mind as I stepped under the shower on that night.
Now, at home, I prefer to take baths so that's probably why this particular move had never occurred to me, but as soon as the water began to fall down on me, I couldn't help but giggle and think of the "innocent energy" falling through your energy system.
Well, here was the "hard thing" happening and how easy did THAT make adding the energetic dimension at the same time, letting the innocent energy rush through my wider field to clear it after that whole day, all those experiences, all those re-alignments I had personally undertaken?
 I'm really good with energy work but even so, it was delightful to be "supported by the actual physical presence of the water" in order to support the process - I spent the first delightful moments of this "totality experience" simply letting the water fall as it would on all planes, all levels, accepting and supporting the process and noting with increasing gratitude just how that made me feel overall - very nice indeed.
So and feeling far more connected all around and as though I had just woken up, I took the shower head off and without thought, my right hand immediately directed the fast stream of hot water to an erea on my left shoulder, near the neck, where a stress tension-knot revealed itself as soon as I followed with my attention.
It really was quite fascinating; I felt much *closer* somehow to the energetic happenings at that point than I normally do, possibly because of the preceeding "innocent energy" experience and the water actually bringing the energy levels and the physicality together in the same place in consciousness; my hands moved automatically and my intention found it incredibly easy to "soften and flow" that knot, that energy blockage, the hot water being absolutely perfect to "stroke down its channel" as it went, softening more and more along its path down my back.
It was a really wonderful energy shift and I couldn't help but think that simply by the fact that no clothing was in the way and the entire path was being "stroked" directly and so that I could also feel it physically and energetically at the same time, it represented a kind of lesson in energy, physicality and intention all aligned for any human "child" such as myself trying to re-learn the ways of the totality.
There were other ereas of which I was absolutely aware even as I was soothing and flowing the first with the wonderfully welcome help of the warm water's gentle pressure on my skin; and I did those too, beautifully gentle releases each, so easy, so natural, feeling so very good.
I really didn't want to stop and then became aware of a pressure in my throat; when I directed the water there I found a sadness and a gratitude for "being cared for", something I guess I don't have a whole lot of experience with; when that blockage was released, I felt extremely serene and knew EXACTLY what I wanted to do next.
I directed the water and with it, my conscious attention to my feet and said, "Thank you so much for carrying me today, I really appreciate it on every level, and I'm sorry about those tight shoes, you deserve better than that. Let this water and the energy it represents clear all memories of hardship and pain away now, and that I thank you and love you immensely."
Thus, I went on all the way through every aspect of my body, stroking each part and thanking each part in consciousness, until I had arrived at my head and fixed the showerhead back to the holder. One last overall benediction from the innocent energy and the process was entirely complete.
It had taken altogether just under 15 minutes.
I don't think I've ever felt so light and serene in my life as I did when I stepped from the shower and to be honest, I was both moved and quite overcome by the experience.
I've tried and done a very great many things on the topic of self healing, self acceptance, self "therapy" and so forth in my time, but this thing which happened there quite spontaneously and so very naturally was - I can only say, of a different order altogether to anything at all I've ever experienced, by myself or with another.
It was really profound and so very, very simple in the concept; all it had taken on my part was the decision to let the process begin by consciously bringing in the concept of the innocent energy at the start, and what was normally a physical process only with the conscious thoughts being on other matters somewhere else already, had brought on a full totality experience of such love and caring, I've never experienced anything like it.
I truly hope you try this for yourself; even if you only catch a glimpse of what this does to your totality in the way of re-connection, re-alignment and mutual coming together from all sides in real caring and understanding, it will be worth more than many hours in therapy.
Best wishes,
Silvia Hartmann, 15. 09. 2003
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